Sabotage: deliberate destruction/ to hinder. That's a good word for what I keep doing to myself. I knowingly stress eat and binge eat. I have had this issue my entire life. I am well and full aware of when I am stress eating and yet I continue to do it. I think that makes me an idiot. This has felt like the longest craziest roller coaster of my life. It's only been 2 months and I have screwed up numerous times. I'm wondering if I will ever learn. I was doing well today and then life happened. I got home to a cranky 2 year old which in turn made a cranky husband and made me want to turn around and go back to work. Sometimes it feels like I am suffocating. I really wanted to reach 20 pounds by my weigh in Friday but at this rate it most definitely will not be happening. I have to remind myself that tomorrow is a new day with a clean slate. Cheers to that.
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