This has been a very hard week for me. I lost my focus last Friday and have had a horrible time getting it back. I feel so incredibly disappointed in myself. I was doing so good thinking I had this all in the bag and I was sorely mistaken. What a slap in the face this week as been. I know it may seem silly to some but I am really terrified of tomorrows weigh in. I am embarrassed of all of the mistakes Ive made this week. Every cheat I have written down is a reminder of the way I let myself go. It is really crazy how fast a frame of mind can be turned upside down. Ive gotten back on track for the most part but there have still been those moments of weakness. I don't know what is wrong with me. I seem to always destroy my progress. I swear I am my own worst enemy. I started getting compliments and people started noticing the changes and automatically I let myself go to shit. Trying to rewire my brain again and get with it. I am hoping I haven't gained to much. I really don't want to take steps backward. Ugh. This is most definitely a real life weight struggle.
Thank you to the friends who continue to read this blog and root for me.
I had a bad weekend too and lost my momentum but everyday is a new day! Now I'm getting back on track and getting motivated again. Maybe you will be surprised at your weigh in tomorrow and find your motivation again. You've got this!
ReplyDeleteGirl, put your head up! You are only human, mistakes are going to happen. But true strength and perseverance is being able to recognize those mistakes, learning from them and doing something about it. All of which you are doing. This journey is about accountability. By writing this blog and admitting/accepting your faults you have just held yourself accountable. I commend you for doing that, most of us just "hide" our mistakes and hope no one notices or make excuses. You can do this! Nothing worth fighting for is easy. You are strong, smart and dedicated. Look at why you slipped, journal about it, and maybe brainstorm new ways to "cope or handle" those situations where you felt you needed to "cheat" as a result. I have faith in you girl, you will do this!!
ReplyDeleteThank you friends!!
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