New milestone.

Today I got on the scale and weighed 208.6. That means I have lost 30 pounds now!! That is the amount of cheese an average person eats in a year. As much as I wanted to jump up and down I couldn't because I was so damn weak. Everyday is getting a little bit harder.  Today I couldn't lift my arms to get Ani dressed.  I was short of breath and breathing heavily just trying to walk across the floor.  I was extremely tired. I was dizzy and lightheaded but I came to work because I cannot afford not to. I planned on going to the ER after work to get some fluids but it was offered to get a bag done at work and I said "lets do this". The bag of fluids helped with the difficulty breathing but I am still weak and shakey. I still feel like I could fall out on the floor at any moment. I just keep telling myself this has to get better.  I have to be able to eat and drink more soon. Right?? It has to happen?? Soon??