Adjusting.

My days of laying on the couch and taking it easy came to an end on Monday.  It's been a really big adjustment.
Monday I had a lot of abdominal tenderness by the end of the day and of course I had that whole dumping incident (ewww again). By the early afternoon I was pretty tired but was able to come home and rest.  I've had a nasty cough that is causing an increase in belly pain too.  A cough after surgery SUCKS. It sucks bad.
Tuesday I was able to eat some apple/blueberry baby food for breakfast. Yes I said baby food.  Its been quite the experience taste testing baby food. A lot of them are so incredibly nasty.  For lunch I ate half of a peach Oikos triple zero yogurt and some unsweet tea.  Its been hard being back to work and around all of the junk food.  There was a drug rep lunch with Mexican food!! Mexican. My favorite.  It's been a real mental challenge because I have head hunger.

 I'm not physically hungry but the smells and sights of food are wonderful!! I am reminded of why I had the surgery. I needed the tool to help myself.  The rest of the afternoon I had a lot of abdominal cramping and was in and out of the bathroom. I don't know why I've had so much trouble with gas and pain. I can only figure it's because I am up moving and its shaking things up.  Apparently my stomach was unimpressed with the non-sweet tea I tried.  I found that my fatigue and weakness was worse and I had difficulty holding ladies arms up to check blood pressure.  I didn't realize I was so weak.  I got home and made some scrambled eggs and had a pretty uneventful evening. My stomach seemed to settle which was a relief.
Today started off okay. I felt pretty good this morning.  I didn't have any patients and was able to catch up on my tasks and paperwork. Lunch came around and I had cottage cheese. Apparently my stomach wasn't happy with that and I ended up in and out of the bathroom again.  I got home and tried to eat soup and I automatically became nauseous and had to lay down.  To put it bluntly I felt like ass.  Ive been short of breath and weak.  I believe I'm expending way more energy and not enough calories. It's so hard to get the calories and liquids in when your stomach hurts all of the time.
It's been 3 days of wishing I was "normal" if only for a day.  I want one day of having energy. One day of being able to drink and eat without a stomachache.  Even with all this happening I am still very happy with my decision to have the surgery.  I've been told several times by co-workers that they don't know how I have done this and they give me props.  This surgery is no joke. It's not easy.  You have to be mentally strong to handle it all.