Forget me not.

Today I forgot to eat! Me. I forgot to eat food.  I have never ever ever forgotten to eat a meal.  I'm not saying this is a good thing by any means. I know right now its imperative that I get my nutrients.  I honestly didn't have food cross my mind once.  I am happy that my every waking moment isn't spent thinking about what my next meal will be.

I have always felt pathetic that I think about food 24/7.  I was a good food junkie.  I WAS.  It's so amazing to know that food no longer consumes me.  I am also forgetting to drink which is not a good thing at all. This new life is hard to adjust to. Hard to find a balance.  I'm really never thirsty either so I keep a cup with me all the time but then get busy with something and forget about it.  I know right now I am not the poster child for a healthy post op bypass patient.  I am really trying to figure it all out and I know I will it will just take some time.  I haven't found any sort of routine yet.
I ran, ran, ran all weekend and am feeling the after effects.  Tomorrow I plan to lay on the couch and relax.  I'm having difficulty slowing down because I have energy I have never had before.  This is the kind of energy I have wanted for the past 15 years.

 Because of that I end up over exerting myself and suffer in the evenings.  I woke up this morning still having the nagging internal tenderness from being so active Friday and Saturday.  Instead of relaxing I ended up cooking for several hours.  So tonight as I lay in bed I am in a lot of pain.  I'm having pain with laughing or taking deep breaths.  So tomorrow I am being lazy.  I have too.  I have to get my body healed before I attempt to go back to work.  A busy day at work means I never stop moving and rarely sit down.  So this week I plan to do as little as possible to get myself where I need to be.
On a very positive note I have not had any lupus pain and very very little fibro pain. That is extremely exciting and such a relief.  This surgery has been a life changer.  I am so thankful I was strong enough to get through the process.