Weaning.

After talking to my PCP I have decided to go ahead and start weaning off of some of my medications.  I don't want my body to go into complete shock after surgery when I won't be able to take them anymore.  This is probably going to be the hardest step in this process for me.  I have pain everyday even with my medications so not taking ANY pain medication is scary.  

I am dropping the NSAID's completely. I will no longer be taking my Ibuprofen first thing in the morning.  I'm scared. The morning is the hardest time of the day for me.  Every muscle and joint in my body hurts just trying to get out of bed.  If I can't have the anti inflammatorys after surgery I my as well get use to it now.  I am also on Cymbalta to help with the pain and also depression/anxiety.  I have decided to stay on this medication. I have tried to go off this medicine in the past and I end up with severe withdrawals.  My pain always get 10x's worse.  I end up with terrible migraines and generalized flu like symptoms. Cymbalta is capsule form so if anything I can open it up and put it on applesauce or something.  I've decided to go ahead and eliminate my Wellbutrin.  With chronic pain comes anxiety and depression. As worried as I am about leaving one antidepressant out of my daily regime I am more worried about having surgery and then trying to go through a withdrawal.  My only concern is that I also take the Wellbutrin for PMDD.  I am worried that the PMDD will go haywire.  I'm also going to eliminate the gabapentin that I take at night for my degenerative disk disease.  I am so hoping that after surgery and weight loss the DDD will improve and won't affect the nerves in my back and legs anymore. 

 That's the start of my weaning!!! Pray for me!! This is a super scary step! I am hoping my body doesn't freak out with the eliminating of medicines.

I know this isn't my most interesting post ever but its on my mind and I want to share my entire process!