My fear.

My biggest fears associated with gastric bypass are:
1. I will be that person who can't lose weight even with most of my stomach and intestines bypassed.  I am scared I'll go through it all and never feel full. Right now I will feel full and still eat. How is it going to be different??? I know bypass is a tool but what if my tool is defective (that sounds dirty...lol)??? But seriously what if I go to my first post op appointment and I've gained weight??? I'll be the fat girl that fails bypass.
2. I will be the person who loses all the weight and then gains it all back in 3 years. If all goes as planned I'll lose weight rapidly.  I don't want to be the chick who ends up heavier than I was before the surgery.
3.  I am most afraid of losing the weight and looking different on the outside but not feeling any different about myself.  I fear always thinking I am an unflattering fat ass.  I plan on sticking with psych to fix my self esteem, self image, and self worth issues.  I wonder how my mentality is going to do a 180.
4. I'm afraid that something will go wrong in surgery. I've never had a surgery or been put under ever.  I know this is an anxiety ridden fear of the unknown but it sticks in the back of my mind.