I am hitting a wall everyday. Being on this prednisone is making weight loss pretty much unattainable. I am now on a maintenance dose of 10mg. I have so much water retention, bloating, and hunger that I am gaining weight at an incredible rate. Its so frustrating to try so hard and not see results. The lupus makes me so damn tired that exercise is difficult. I feel like I've lost myself in this Lupus flare. Its like a tornado that ripped apart everything. This disease consumes your life. Everyday I deal with fatigue and lack of energy. I just want to live a 34 year olds life. Add in being fat and life is pretty depressing. All of the weight is going to my face and belly. You can say that appearance doesn't matter but to me it does. I want to look in the mirror and be happy. Right now I am embarrassed and disgusted daily. I am uncomfortable in all of my clothes especially my scrubs. I wish I had great positive news to share but unfortunately right now I do not. Yesterday I had my weigh in and I was 205.6. Yes I gained 4 pounds in 1 week. I am on my cycle (sorry to the men that read this) so that made cravings hard and I gave in to a couple. I see a new rheumatologist in March and am hoping he can figure out something to help. Sorry for the Debbie downer post. Its just been one of those weeks. I hope all of you had a better one.
No comments:
Post a Comment