Official 1 month weigh in.

I weighed in today at 215.3. I only lost .1 since last week but I think that's pretty good considering my cheating last weekend. I am down a total of 11.2 pounds and 4.9% body fat. Pretty happy with my progress so far.

Ended up in the ER last night after having intense right upper quadrant pain throughout the day and was told I have a peptic ulcer and gallbladder colic. So they told me to watch my diet and gave me prevacid and pain medication. So glad that I am on this journey already so eating healthy has been started and is easier to maintain. Never really had stomach issues like this before. Hoping it all goes away soon!
I will find out in a few days how much I won for this first month. Very excited to see!

Strayed.

This weekend I ate way to much and way to much junk! My bestest friend was here to visit and I lost all of my self control. There is a reason I don't stray from my healthy eating much. Once I start its really hard to stop. I'm really nervous about my weigh in on Wednesday. I have got to get back on it and work my ass off the next few days. I stepped on the scale this morning and my stomach automatically sunk. All that work and 2 days of bad eating has made me gain back some poundage.  Time to catch back up!

Weigh In Wednesday

Its that time again! Weigh In Wednesday! I am down 2.1 pounds this week! That makes a total of 11.1!!!! I am soooooo happy that I did not give in to all the cravings I had the past couple of days!!! Eating healthy is what its all about! I am doing it and am beyond happy. The majority of this is mental. If I stay on track and eat the way I have been I will continue losing weight. I am so stoked!!

Mental battle.

I am having a serious mental battle with a damn chocolate chip snack cake.  The struggle is REAL!  I shouldn't even have them in the house but Ani B picked them up at the store and I got them for her over the weekend.  I took the day off work today and am home alone.  HOME ALONE!  I should be relaxing and basking in the wonderfulness of no one here needing me.  As much as I enjoy the silence I honestly wish I had someone here to hold me accountable.  Why in the world is the start of week 3 being the hardest for me?!  I looked in the Little Debbie box this morning and there is 1 cake left!  I put the freaking cake in the pantry to "hide it" and have considered going and getting the package out multiple times.  Its ridiculous that I cant get a snack cake out of my head.  That's how you know you have a seriously destructive view of food.  Its food.  Why in the world is food always on my brain???  This journey is so hard. I wish there was something that would scrape the taste buds off my tongue.  Yeah that's a bit mental I know.  Well probably really mental.  We all have our vices....mine is obviously food....and today its a snack cake!  I will hopefully continue to stay away from the pantry and just say NO.  Damn you snack cakes!  How dare you Little Debbie!! 

Cravings.

This weekend has been hard for me. Its the first time in the past 2 1/2 weeks that I've actually wanted to have a cheat. I have been drinking chocolate chip frappes twice a week as my cheat but that wasn't going to cut it yesterday. I ended up having pizza. Not fancy pizza just the boxed straight out of the freezer kind. I would think those would have less caloric value but I really don't know. I also went to Dairy Queen for ice cream. I have to say the brownie thing covered in whipped cream and chocolate was the first thing I saw on the board! I maintained composure and decided instead of getting a dessert that would have thousands of calories I went for a small chocolate, chocolate dipped cone. It was light and curved the sweet tooth.  Onward to week 3! I have a feeling I'm going to struggle this week......

Weigh-in Wednesday

I lost 4.3 pounds this week!!! I am so proud of myself! I've lost 8.7 pounds in 2 weeks!!!! Still doing good and making healthy decisions. Sometimes a switch flips and I believe mine has. I still can't tell that I've lost anything but I'm excited to notice in the future!
This weekend was the dreaded "time to put on a bathing suit and go to the pool" day. I have to say it sucked. Nothing worse than walking by skinny little people in their tiny bikinis. It did give me some more motivation though! Maybe next summer I'll be more confident and ready to show off what I'm working for!

Portion control.

A lot of my problem with food is portion control! I'm amazed at how big the portions were before I really started paying attention.  I measured out a cup of frosted mini wheats one morning and I swear it was 8 pieces of cereal. I though no wonder I was putting on weight like crazy! My 1 "cup" of cereal before was equivalent to probably 3 cups of cereal!  My cereal bowl was probably screaming under the weight of half a box of cereal! Anyway I have regained some of the portion control. I am trying to limit carbs like bread, potatoes, rice, and crackers. I try and eat the majority of carbs in the morning and at lunch.  I eat a small amount of the main meal for dinner and a big side salad to fill me up. I feel really good and am excited to start seeing results!  I ate pasta for dinner but was very careful with how much I ate! I used one of Anistyn's baby bowls to help with that. Whatever works right?!

Weigh-in Wednesday

My official 1 week into the diet bet weigh in was this morning!  I weighed 121.8 this morning!! I've lost a total of 4.7 pounds!!! I am so proud of what I've accomplished in a week! I've kept close to my diet and haven't strayed much at all!

This was the highlight of a crappy ending day.

So far so good.

So far I've been doing surprisingly well. I'm not ridiculously hungry or overly bitchy. At least I don't think I've been bitchy. Hmmmm. Im trying to change portions and add a lot of fruit to suppress the chocolate and sugar cravings. I had family visiting this weekend and I was really nervous about sabatoging myself. I thought...well hell I'm going to eat out and ruin this thing before it even starts.  I ended up being able to go to two restaraunts and make pretty good choices. They were definitely not choices I would have normally made (strawberry something or other salad) or even really wanted to make (bland baked chicken) but in the end of all of this I would like to have a tight little ass. C'mon you know you want to laugh at my future goals! Don't you?! Trying to be mindful of everything I put in my mouth. Its not easy and such a conscious effort. I can't say I've been perfect because that would be a lie. I've had a chocolate chip frappe from McDonalds this week because I LOVE them. I had to much bread at lunch yesterday. I ate to many chicken and dumplings at lunch today. I'm just thankful I am aware of the areas that need tweaking.

On the Lupus front I am doing okay I guess. I go see the rheumatogist Wednesday and see what he has to say. I'm still exhausted before the day even starts. My body hurts 24/7 and then some. Hoping for some sort of repreve. It bothers me the most to have my hands stiff and sore. It is Lupus Awareness month so if you aren't very aware of what Lupus is or how it affects someone do some research. Research is knowledge.

Until weigh in Wednesday my friends!