I have been on this journey since January 1st. I didn't start the wellness program until the 3rd but I was already trying to eat better and exercise on my own. I am 25 days into this and exercising seems to be getting harder! I thought that by now I would start to build up some stamina and this would be a little easier. I know it wont be crazy easy because I am fat and out of shape but I didn't think it would get harder. Why is it getting harder? *pouting* Its frustrating to me! Full of frustrations the past few days. I don't know if its due to a stressful long week at work or what. Ive tried to exercise as much as I can despite the long late days at work. I'm doing the same tapes (alternating between about 4) so they aren't new moves I'm doing. I just don't know. I'm just glad I am keeping up with it all. My later days I try and do Yoga or Pilates and short days and weekends I do my cardio tapes. Id say I am averaging about 4 days a week of exercise. It makes me very nervous to get out there and try and run again. I have big dreams in my head of who I want to be but am still scared to get out there and do it. Hopefully by this time next month I will be stronger. Luckily I work at an awesome place and they are now going to be offering Yoga and Zumba to their employees starting next week. Yoga will be on Tuesday and Zumba will be on Thursday. Ive never tried Zumba and have an inkling that I will not look real sexy doing it! There will be a tremendous amount of fat jiggling. Ewwww. The best part of this is that I wont have to leave work and go to another facility to do it. I always feel guilty leaving work and going to a gym to work out before going to see my family.
Food cravings.......I hate them. Yesterday was a rough one. I wanted something sweet! I craved candy bars, cake, and ice cream like nobody's business at work. Jason ended up bringing me a cappuccino (I know not a great choice) and it made those cravings go away. After the long week I forgot to take anything out of the freezer to thaw yesterday. Pisses me off when I do that. Noelle of course wanted Arbys. I checked the nutrition of each item before I even went through the drive through so I would have my plan in place. I ended up getting a turkey and cheese kid meal with a water. Yes I could have chosen apple slices but I didn't (I suck sometimes). I did however end up sharing the fries between Anistyn (I did get her apple slices) and Jason. So I did feel better not having ate the entire contents by myself. Was it worth the calories? Not really. I would have been just as happy eating a can of soup. The good news I didn't go to far over my calorie allotment (1027). I exercised after dinner and that helped with the excess. The best news is I woke up not craving a damn thing. There are ALWAYS going to be temptations and it is on you how you decide to conquer them.
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Last but not least DOUBLE CHINS. Who likes them? I sure as hell do not! Anyone that knows me (especially my photographer friends) is well aware of my aversion to double chins. I am always terrified that I will have a double chin in a photo. I am a pro at situating my face in a manner that will hide the second chin. We were born with one chin (well except as a baby we have about 10) and I enjoy only seeing one chin. The good news is that I have been told by a few people that my face looks slimmer. They didn't come out and say "Your nasty ass double chin is disappearing", but that is what I heard loud and clear! LOL. If my face slimming is the first thing to go I will surely take it! Its exciting to see small changes. It would be even more exciting to see some BIG changes.
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