Anxiety.

I'm not sure what has got my anxiety meter on high right now but I don't like it.  I am freaking myself out about everything.  Anistyn is having her surgery this week and I know that has me stressed.  I know this isnt a major surgery but my children have never had to be put under and to me that is scary. 
I hate that society's mistakes make me panic.  I went on a mommy/daughter date with my oldest yesterday and worried the whole time I was in the theater.  I was making sure I knew of ways to get out if I needed to.  I wondered if this would be the next theater some screwed up kid would decide to shoot up.  It really terrifies me that my children will live in a world of fear. 
Anyway what does that have to do with a weight loss blog?  I am a stress eater if you recall.  When I am anxious or stressed I want to eat.  I am thankful that today is Monday and I am going back to work.  Work is an easy outlet to relieve my stress.  Stress also causes weight gain especially that lovely belly fat we all know and love so much.  This all in turn makes me anxious for my weigh in on Thursday. I already have a head full of doubt and don't feel like I am going to do well.  Why do I let my brain control so many aspects of my life!?  I hoping that I get a sense of relief and peace soon. 
Also I noticed that Anistyn stepped on the scale last night by accident and it came on.  So me being the scale addict that I am have stepped on it 3 times since last night.  This isn't good.  I know in my head I need to just stop or I'm going to screw myself up but if only it were that easy.  I thought the battery was out of the scale and I hadn't stepped on it in over 2 months.  Ugh.  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.  Nope that didn't help.  Man this journey is a up and down battle.  Have a good one folks.