For the first time since surgery I finally feel a difference. Jason and I went to my work Christmas party last night and had an amazing time!! I feel silly now for stressing so much about "the dress".
I was able to slip this dress on last night and feel beautiful for the first time in years. I was comfortable with my body and was able to think " damn I've got something going on"! Lol. It was a nice change from hating myself and my body. I had a ton of energy and was able to dance all evening!
I was able to stand beside my amazingly sexy husband and not feel embarrassed for him. For most of our marriage I have felt like a disappointment. I've felt like he was way to good looking and sexy to have a girl like me. I often wondered what people were thinking when they saw us together. "Poor guy is with that fat girl" was often chanted in my head. Last night I felt sexy. I felt like we looked like a perfect couple.
I am so thankful I made the hard decision to have this surgery and make this life change. Everyday is getting better and less difficult. Everyday brings me new life. I hope to continue to love the person I am transforming into.
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