I'm typing this Tuesday night to preface the actual weigh in. I can tell you that I have gained back a lot of weight this past week. I have been so incredibly stressed and have turned to food for like the 1,000,000,000 time. I have even binged a few times. I was doing so good! I had lost 11 pounds! It amazes me how fast I can put weight back on. I don't understand why I can't use the stress for something positive or productive. Trying to lose the weight feels like a overwhelming suffocation. I guess tomorrow I will be posting my disappointment for all to read. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I frustrate the hell out of myself!
Well weigh in was as disappointing as I expected. It's my own fault. I know I was eating things that I shouldn't be eating when it came to snacks and well food in general. I'm amazed at how fast you can destroy your progress. My weight today was 219.8. As you all try to subtract the numbers I will just tell you that is a gain of 4.5 pounds! 4.5 pounds!!!! WTH?! I want to go outside and yell and scream. I can't figure out how to handle stress other than by eating. The stress of the past week is continuing into this week. It just never ends. This is my life. Apparently the ups and downs and yo yo dieting is just a part of who I am.
On another note...I had a diet Pepsi last week. This was the first soda since January. I have to say that it was so disappointing. Its nice to know that I have that under control. I have however taken a liking to energy drinks. I know I know they are just as bad but they are keeping me awake and on my feet. This is my reality readers! This week just sucked!
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