It's been awhile.

I have been MIA for awhile. In that time I have gained a whole lot of weight. I look back at pictures from this time last year and I feel I am unrecognizable. I was 50 pounds lighter and definitely loved myself much more than I do now. I've been off the steroids (I sound like a crazy bodybuilder) for almost 2 months so the extra weight gain is just me eating terribly. When I look at myself I feel like there is no hope and I just eat what I want. I know that is a TERRIBLE mind set. My Lupus (or whatever it is.....the Dr has screwed with my head on that one) is still not good at all. My joints ache all the time. I'm just going to have to overcome that and exercise even if its just a little bit.

On the 29th I am starting a 6 month diet bet. I've realized that I lose weight the best when it is in competition with other people. This particular program is competition for money. Lose weight for money???!!! HELLS YEAH. So I put 25.00 in the large pot every month and at the end of the 6 months if I have lost 10% of my body weight I get a percentage of the large pot of money.  Everyone needs a little competition in their lives right?! So no more chocolate donuts....no more work lunches....no more ice cream.  I think this will be fun! If anyone else wants to join go to dietbet and join The Transformer.

I'm excited! Ready to blog again to! I will be laying it all out there as usual. Love you all!