Slacker.

Slacker by definition means "a person who shirks work and obligation". I have been a horrible slacker for the past week. HORRIBLE. I've made terrible diet decisions and my old frame of mind and thoughts have crept back in. If I eat a cookie I think well I already ruined my calories for the day so eating another cookie or two won't make a difference. What the hell?! Why am I doing this! I will have an official weigh in tomorrow. I am not looking forward to the results. I feel like I need to go to a room covered in mirrors and scold myself!! This weekend is going to be just as bad due to it being Noelle's birthday. I am starting back up hardcore on Monday. There is no way I will succeed with Noelle's food plans. We are doing Ihop for breakfast so I will "need" pancakes. I ordered the "healthy" breakfast from there before and it was disgusting!! She wants Camino Real for lunch and who can turn down queso cheese? We are doing a ice cream bar and homemade chicken and dumplings for dinner!!  Yeah trying to be good and healthy with all of that going on would be detrimental to my well being!!  I need to make better choices and lose some more of this belly and butt!  I bought new capris today and it felt amazing to try on smaller sizes.  I have patients noticing and commenting on my weight loss daily now which feels wonderful!! I have to remember those moments to knock myself back into the right frame of mind. All of this is on my shoulders. I am the only one who can do this for myself.