Week 15 weigh in.

I weighed in yesterday morning at 173 exactly. I've lost 2 pounds since last week! I still have to lose 3.5 pounds to get back to where I was before I went a little food crazy! I plan on running this weekend! I'm actually excited to see how I do. Everyone have a wonderful weekend. Its supposed to be beautiful! Get outside and exercise!

Stress eating.

Why in the world can I not be a stress exerciser? Why cant I be a stress house cleaner? How awesome would that be?!  I would essentially be a hot maid! Unfortunately I am a top of the class A+ stress eater!!

A few stressful events have happened since Friday and I am struggling to breathe. The hubby had knee surgery Friday which was to have a recuperation time of 2-3 days.  He hobbled out on crutches 3 hours later with a recuperation time of 6 weeks. So my mind automatically went to everything that was going to have to be rearranged and of course I stressed out immediately. The next day I had to take a trip to the walk in dentist for a crown that had fallen off and a rank decaying going on in the leftover tooth. I walked out of there 1300 dollars poorer. Of course finances are always a source of stress. Paying for a bridge with money I don't have was just cause for a slight panic attack and binge. Last but not least my oldest daughter "forgot" that her glasses were off of her face and on the floor when she went to stand up. Those glasses broke right down the middle and my credit card screamed.  So all of that in a span of two days was detrimental for me running and jumping back on the wagon. I totally tried to jump as it went by but I missed and fell on my ass hard!
I know all of this is a mind game. Its a game I don't care for at all. I think mind games are worst.  I am fighting a mental battle with myself. I've checked my weight and I am less than I was last Friday. I have lost some weight with all of the running around I have done this weekend. At the rate I'm going it will not be pretty by weigh in day.  I've got my lunch together to take tomorrow so I won't cheat at work. I'm so incredibly frustrated with myself!!  Jason is trying to keep me in check and I am thankful for my team mate. I love him.
I forgot to mention that the "get fit" awards night was last Tuesday. Unfortunately I didn't win but am happy to say Dr. Bratsch won the whole thing!! She lost over 7% of her body fat in 12 weeks!!! So very proud of her and her hard work!  She won a multitude of items one being a spa trip for two. She so graciously asked me to join her when she goes! She said it was for all of my hard work! She is awesome! So blessed to work for someone I love to death. As for my results I lost 17.6 pounds, 5.8% body fat and 8+ inches. I was pretty proud of those results! I may not of won the big prize but I did win a challenge I had for myself. So in the end I felt like a silver medal winner.

Disappointed.

I am so incredibly disappointed in myself. I weighed in today and am sad to say I was 175. I have gained 5 freaking pounds in a week!!! I've just went berserk. It is so easy to stray away. Three steps back I swear. This weight battle is going to last my entire life! I HAVE to get my head back on straight. I gorged myself on blasted cheesecake last night to the point of no turning back!  I will NOT go back to that miserable person who weighed almost 200 pounds. I will NOT!
Telling you all my weight this week and struggles is embarrassing! One day at a time......

Results.

Sooooooo I had my final weigh in with the GET FIT program today. My final weight is 169.8. I have lost 17.6 pounds since the middle of January (still 25 pounds since I started my journey January 1st).  My starting weight was 187.4.
The final measurement results are:

1. Chest 40.5 inches and now 38.5 inches. Total: 2 inches
2. Hips 49.5 inches and now 46. Total: 3.5 inches
3. Waist 35.5 inches and now 32. Total 3.5 inches

The other measurements are caliper readings. I have not the slightest idea how to read them or understand them. If anyone can fill me in and help me understand I would appreciate it! They all went down so I am assuming that is a good thing!

1. Triceps 47/48 and now 35/34
2. Abdomen 40/35/39 and now 28/28
3. Thigh 53/55 and now 50/50

Body fat percentage was 44.7% and now 39.7%

All in all great results I think!! I am thinking about doing a "No Boundries" 5K program starting in May. I think it would be a great way to stay motivated! I love running once I get started. I am hoping that since I weigh less running will be a bit easier. Quite honestly I am a suckish runner!! Pretty comical to be exact!

Thankfully this week I didn't gain (well 3 ounces) like I thought I was going too! Score one for this lovely lass!!

Slacker.

Slacker by definition means "a person who shirks work and obligation". I have been a horrible slacker for the past week. HORRIBLE. I've made terrible diet decisions and my old frame of mind and thoughts have crept back in. If I eat a cookie I think well I already ruined my calories for the day so eating another cookie or two won't make a difference. What the hell?! Why am I doing this! I will have an official weigh in tomorrow. I am not looking forward to the results. I feel like I need to go to a room covered in mirrors and scold myself!! This weekend is going to be just as bad due to it being Noelle's birthday. I am starting back up hardcore on Monday. There is no way I will succeed with Noelle's food plans. We are doing Ihop for breakfast so I will "need" pancakes. I ordered the "healthy" breakfast from there before and it was disgusting!! She wants Camino Real for lunch and who can turn down queso cheese? We are doing a ice cream bar and homemade chicken and dumplings for dinner!!  Yeah trying to be good and healthy with all of that going on would be detrimental to my well being!!  I need to make better choices and lose some more of this belly and butt!  I bought new capris today and it felt amazing to try on smaller sizes.  I have patients noticing and commenting on my weight loss daily now which feels wonderful!! I have to remember those moments to knock myself back into the right frame of mind. All of this is on my shoulders. I am the only one who can do this for myself.

Valleys.

Ive had a really rough week in the eating department since the weekend.  I got to the 160's and did so good last week and now this week has been a complete bust!  I seem to have the same pattern every month.  I will do really well and then sabotage myself.  I haven't made good decisions this week.  I have over ate and binged a couple times.  Jason asked me how Ive done this week and I was to embarrassed to even tell him.  Ive done better today but Monday and Tuesday were really *bleeped* up!  I haven't lost complete focus.  I know this because I realize what I am doing and am reeling it all back in.  I have slacked on "my fitness pal" terribly and need to jump back on the journaling wagon.  I guess I felt I needed a little break.  I am disappointed in myself but moving forward,  There always has to be those valleys after the beautiful sun covered peaks.  I don't expect my weigh in Friday to be very good at all.  I am sure I will see the 170's pop back up.  There isn't anyone to blame but myself.  Pulling up my big girl panties and carrying on!

Week 13 weigh in.

I am in the 160's!!!!!  I am beyond excited!  I am now weighing in at home on Fridays since I am done with the medical program.  I was 169.5 this morning!  I am down 25 pounds and I could not be happier!  I have amazed myself with what I have been able to accomplish!  Next week I will get measured again as the get fit challenge will be coming to an end as well.  Excited to see the results from that!  I'm becoming a new person with everyday that passes and I love it!  If I can do this you all can for sure!  I have never stuck with anything for this long.  Onward to the 150's!

Flips and Flops

Over the past week I have had many flips. What's a flip? It's when something happens that makes you want to do a double triple fliple! Yes I made up a word. I like to do that. Lol. When something exciting happens I become a Olympic gold gymnastic star (in my head of course).
My first flip came last week when I went and called a patient who was there for her 6 week post partum appointment. As soon as she and her husband walked through the door he said "Congratulations!" I was confused because I should have been congratulating them on having their beautiful baby girl. Instead he was congratulating ME on my weight loss! I was so thankful that they had noticed! I was very proud that I made it to that 12 week point where other people start noticing. Hooooooray!!
My double flip came yesterday! I went into my closet and saw my goal capris laying on the floor.  Last time I tried them on I could barely pull them up over my thighs/hips and I couldn't button them at all.  Well yesterday I slipped those babies on and buttoned them!!! I ran out to the living room so excited to show Jason. He was so proud and Noelle said "you are getting skinny".  I had the biggest smile on my face!! Now I couldn't keep the cute capris on because I may have been able to button them but I still had a muffin top! I tend to lean toward comfort and prefer no extra baggage coming along for the ride.
My triple flip came Monday when I spent the majority of the day with my sweet husband. Most of the day was spent at the VA but that time was spent just us talking, relaxing, and holding hands. When you have children your marriage is placed second to often. You need moments to just be.  The evening was spent walking around the mall holding hands and a surprise purchase from my love. I got some rocking orange sunglasses!! Since I have lost the weight I feel much more attractive and that is due to the compliments from Jason.  I love my marriage and feel so loved.

Onward to the flops. You know that moment when you jump off the high dive and belly flop smack into the water? That's how my flops feel.  This week has been hard.  I've been off work since Saturday and have been incredibly busy. Busy days mean poor eating decisions. I've not ate three times a day in several days. Breakfast has been later in the day so I will skip lunch or dinner. We are eating out more so I know the meals are packed full of calories. If I eat a high calorie meal I'm usually full for quite some time so I end up going to bed having not eaten. Once the clock hits 8 I try not to eat anything else. So I'm happy that I am observant of what I'm doing and am making decisions to help myself. I do however also know that I'm probably not eating enough.  Things should get back to normal after tomorrow.
Enjoy those flipping moments and embrace the flopping moments!

Stay tuned for my Friday weigh in!!